Living the Resurrection by Deborah Horack

As I was trying to come up with something for Easter a lot of thoughts crossed my mind. I was often distracted by a very severe pain that was from my hip, down my leg and into my foot. I could not even sit long enough to come up with something. But God said  “Write about your pain and mine.” During the Easter season we all seem to remember the pain Jesus went through on this earth. The pain, the sorrow, the humiliation because He was who He was. Gods son, and He willingly picked up His cross to carry. Jesus said yes with His whole being to follow the will of God. Do I have that same willingness? Can I carry my cross with that much faith and grace? In reality it does not even come close to the cross Jesus carried. In our day and time what is our cross? I feel it is our everyday troubles that can keep us from the will of God. To follow the will of God and to become a true disciple is not easy. It takes every ounce of faith we can build up. To build that faith when you don’t know when the next bill will be paid. When the doctor enters the room and tells you it is cancer. To find out your child is addicted to drugs. Can you find your faith? Can you honestly say “Lord your will be done.” I do not know about you but that is a very hard statement to make. My own feelings and questions can prevent me from trusting God that much. It can be hard for me at times to go through trials and not have questions. But what is even harder, is not having the answers. To have the faith and wait for God to answer, well lets just say I can be a little impatient at times. Jesus himself asked God “My God, my God why have you forsaken me.” At Jesus weakest moment He cried out. At our weakest moments we cry out also. It is easy at times to feel abandoned. When we don’t know what God is doing in our life we often cry out. We want answers now. If God did not give Jesus an answer what makes you think He will give you one. God understands our weaknesses just like He understood that side of Jesus. God knows my flaws and loves me unconditionally. God knows my faith is weak at times and God forgives me. I have to try and set my feelings aside, live for God so He can transform into His image. Christ lives in me and in me they need to see the face of Christ. They need to see it in my eyes, heart and in my actions. I have to live the resurrection and show people God is alive. I have to reveal who God is. Jesus died for me and lives in me.  I want Jesus to know that He did not die for nothing.