have always tried to write my testimony, but I found it difficult, to put a "life" into words and to be able to get the full meaning. I am so much better at drawing...*smile*
How do you write a testimony? And does anyone really care anyway?
I have had a wonderful life because God was always my center point, a great childhood, because I found God young and stayed with Him, an excellent family and relatives because we all had God in our lives, so what can I say that would mean anything or help another who reads this?
I guess the biggest part of my testimony that would help others who may read it is, what helped me to get where I am today, and why I can say boldly and without hesitation that "I have overcome this world". YHWH, God, our Father in heaven is real and you can know Him up close and personal.
I find that when I talk about God, the way that I do, people often say this to me: "you talk as if He really speaks to you,". I can't imagine living life, and not hearing from God, how do people live in this world without hearing Him? Yes, God does speak to me.
I know my God, and I hear His voice, and my life is beautiful and awesome because of Him. He is real, He does love me, and I will never stop glorifying His name and sharing what He tells me to share. Nothing matters anymore to me, but His will be done.
Its only a lonely road for a short time, when you have to leave the familiar behind, and move forward again as God calls. The reason I know now, why God did not call me to marriage. I would not have been able to grow in Him, the way that I have, if I had any other priorities or responsibilities other than Him. Today, I see that more clear than ever before. I am so grateful that I chose to listen to Him all of these years and not to man.
My testimony is filled with *snippets* of God's amazing Grace, and how He always stayed with me from a babe to a seasoned child doing His will be done on earth as it is in heaven. But the key is that I really stayed with Him.
When God touched my life at 10 years old, that was the biggest impact in my younger years.
I was playing basketball with friends, and I saw this praying mantis that I wanted to get a closer look at. So my friend went and got a jar to put him into, to take a closer look at him. One by one my 4 friends looked and then shook the praying mantis, and it made my heart really sad. I grabbed the jar and ran home in tears telling the praying mantis that I was sorry, I was so very sorry, I never meant for that to happen. I ran into my backyard, and behind my pool. I asked God to forgive me, I said "please God, please let the praying mantis live. I promise to never harm another thing ever again". I heard an audible voice say to me "Do you promise?" I looked up, and asked out loud "Is that You God?" And the voice answered me saying, "Do you promise, never to harm another life again" and I said "Yes, I promise". I have kept that promise, and God had never left my side. That was my first major touch from the Creator of all and everything that is, and there are many more to follow.
There were times in my teens that I could have gotten mixed into the wrong path or crowd, but I always sought God's counsel and He always answered me. When I chose His will be done, life stayed good. His will is not hard, it's the reason we were created, the path we should fulfill, the life we were meant to live. It's pleasant, full of love and God's amazing grace. It's a slower road, you have to listen to Him, you have to abide and be patient and humble yourself. Sometimes the wait is long, but always worth it because God knows best and His timing is perfect.
Now don't get me wrong, as there were times I tried things, but God was still there with me. I was not rebellious against Him, but asked Him to walk with me as I learned things. I guess you can say that I never left God.
For me it is a 2 way conversation all the time. I am constantly saying teach me Father. And He really does. The mistakes I have made I have learned really good lessons from, and I thank Him everyday for loving me enough to never leave or forsake me. He never has and I know He never will.
This is my life verse:
Matthew 7:13-14 Enter ye in at the strait gate: for wide is the gate, and broad is the way, that leadeth to destruction, and many there be which go in thereat. Because strait is the gate, and narrow is the way, which leadeth unto life, and few there be that find it.
I will always choose the road that "few" find or follow. It's a very beautiful road, loaded with many beautiful gifts from our Father's Spirit. It is a forever eternal pathway that never ends.
I will share some of the lessons that I have learned, to help those who read this, to be able to see God in all of my life's verses. God is an amazing, real and wonderful Father of All. He is 100% LOVE, LOVE, LOVE.
I was engaged at 21 years old and as soon as the ring went on my finger and my boyfriend asked me to marry him. I heard our Father in heaven saying, "I did not call you to marriage".
This is where the road is lonely at times, but I obeyed and broke it off. Yes, it was very tough to tell him. But overall, I am glad I made the choice, for God. Scripture tells us about those He calls to not marry. It was hard, especially in my 20's when all my friends were marrying and I knew God was saying "No" to me, without an answer, just "No". All I knew was to obey His will, and I did. I now know, it was because He did not want any other distractions in my life. I was to seek Him fully, without distraction for the purpose He has placed upon my life. I guess overall the biggest part I play for God is to intercede for whom ever He calls me to pray for, and growing with Him daily and accepting whatever He places upon my path.
Here are some other ways that God has touched my life:
I was in my 20's and I was praying while I was driving, I asked God to protect me, and all other people in vehicles on the road in the whole world. Whenever I prayed, I never just prayed small. Every prayer I prayed I always prayed for everyone who existed in God's eyes. Then I prayed that I would not hit any animals, or animals run into me. Right after that prayer I saw a baby deer darting through the tree's heading right for the road, and right before, it was going to cross the road I saw a cloud of protection. And in mid air the deer hit the cloud and fell straight down as if it were a wall, and the baby deer turned and ran back into the woods.
I have learned that there is real power in prayer.
I was driving home from a very long work day. I was tired and still had a 3 hour drive ahead of me. I tried pulling over and getting a coffee, slapping my face, driving with all the windows opened. My head kept bobbing to sleep, and I knew I was swerving everytime I re-awoke. I then prayed and asked God, I said "Oh Father, I will never make it home please help me, if I could just close my eyes and open them and my exit would be there would be so great". I closed my eyes like a blink and opened them and my exit was the next exit. It was like I went 3 hours of drive time in 2 seconds.
He said to me, you can't do that anytime you want, but because you were really in need and when you asked I was there. How cool is our Father in heaven. I could not stop thanking Him.
A second time approx. 15 years later I was very tired, long work day, but this time the drive home was 5 hours and it was pouring rain. I asked God to make it sunny so I could get home safe, I should have asked to be translated in a second, now that I think about it, but I asked to let the rain clear for me so the drive was easier. Instantly the sun came out, and as I was driving I noticed people who were driving by me their cars were wet and the windshields going as if it were raining all around me, but not on me. It was the neatest thing ever. All the radio stations said it was raining, but I asked and God cleared my path and gave me sunshine and dryness. I still stand in *awe* at that one. What a God we serve.
I heard a story of a man whom was called on a mission trip to Russia. The man had no money to go to Russia, but wanted to obey God's call. So the man prayed and asked God for money to go on this trip. God had different plans. It came down to the man leaving for this trip, but he had no clue how he was going to get there. God asked if the man trusted God completely, and the man said yes, then God said then just follow my lead. He told the man to pack his bags and head to the airport. He told the man to go into this certain stall in one of the bathrooms with his suitcase and close the door, the man did. One second later God said okay you can open the door, when the man did he was in Russia.
If God has a will, and you are a surrendered vessel to His will be done, you will have a way to do His will, without leaning on your own understanding or resources, or anybody elses.
I was in my basement in the 80's and I wanted to call on my angels, I heard you could call on your angels and they would come and manifest in real life. I thought that would be so cool. So I lay down on the floor and was going to just close my eyes and meditate and call on them, when God said, "No" boldly. And immediately I stood up, He told me I would be opening doors to realms I did not even know existed. Then my spirit felt heavy and I knew He just kept me again from something I did not understand yet. Later I learned of the Principalities and powers that rule this world and you do not want to mess with them, if you are a babe in Christ. I will get into some real spiritual warfare life stories towards the end, when I was finally equipped and prepared for such a battle.
There are Holy Angels for God's will be done, and unholy angels who are the devil's minions, so be careful which ones you ask for, it's best to go to God and let Him send you the Holy Angels He desires you to have for His reasons and plan upon your life. If you search and seek for God, you will find Him, He promises that to all of us in His word.
People have no clue as to doors they have opened upon their life by just speaking the wrong words. Go to God immediately if this helped you to learn truth, and ask Him to break all soul ties and bonds that you have made with anything in your life you may not have understood. Ask Him now to break all spirits of darkness upon your life. Ask God anything and trust that He does hear you and will move upon your request, in His perfect time.
I am the type that learns slowly, I step out into things and into the unknown with a sense of security, that if I am on the wrong path, God will turn me around and lead me correctly. And if I am on the correct path, I will just know and keep walking it out. There are times when I did not understand certain leadings, but I stayed with Him 24 / 7 leaning on Him, trusting Him. He told me He tests others hearts through my obedience. He tests hearts through many whom are surrendered to Him and sealed by Him.
I started praying to know His voice, and to hear Him very clear when He called, like I heard when I was 10. That I would not doubt His voice, and that I would never fall astray, or go to the wayside. I wanted to bear much fruit in my life, and knew I could not do it, without fully hearing His voice. This story is kind of humorous, as God can be at times, I just love Him so much, He is the most kind, loving, gentle amazing Father that words cannot explain. I love Him and would do anything for Him, or go anywhere for Him, That is how much I trust and know He is real.
This is how I learned to really hear the audible voice of God.
I was going to make an egg, and I heard that loud audible voice say: "DON'T EAT THE EGG". I asked "is that You God". But I heard No answer. So I kind of just ignored it and went on my business. I was thinking as I was cooking it, okay did I just hear that because I'm not suppose to eat this, and then I started questioning God:
Is it because it's an aborted chicken?
Is it because it was going to be a baby chicken?
Is it because it is an animal?
Is it poisoned?
Does it have salmonella?
What is it God, did you say that to me, "don't eat the egg?" Still I heard nothing.
I was thinking about what it was now, a chicken, and started to feel sick inside. I mean whoever came up with eating an egg in the first place? Here is this living chicken that gives birth to this living egg (a baby) who decided in the beginning, to pick up this egg that just came out of its mother, and eat it? It is really gross when you take the time to think about it. I don't eat eggs anymore, that's for sure?*yuck*
