Testimony of Terri by Terri
Hello I am Terri. Some people called me Terrie or
Terria. I would like to update my testimony . It has
been one year since I overcame my depression. I
have a severe hearing loss in which I do not hear
any of the spoken sounds of the alphabet. I also
have trouble understanding spoken and written languages.
I wear two hearing aids which helps to hear better.
Please bear with me and with my communications on
emails or bulletins and comments too.
How I became a born again Christian. When I was
fifteen years old, I was a very selfish, stubborn,
and childish person. I didn't feel like going to
church. I was more interested in the ways of the
fantasy world around me. I didn't want to learn and
know who Jesus Christ was. One day, I finally went
with my mother to Sunday School, I met this new
teacher who told the story about Jesus Christ who
died on the Cross. It hit me what she said about
Hell and Heaven. I was reading Matthew 10:28.
Hell is a pretty scary thought. If I would not
believe in Jesus Christ, I would be in hell.
I would end up living in hell. In Matthew 10:28 it
says." And fear not them which kill the body, but
are not able to kill the soul; but rather fear him
which is able to destroy both soul and body in hell."
I read this and this is not a pretty picture at all.
I didn't want to end up there. I didn't quite
understand what she was saying about how Jesus
would take away our sins and will then take us to
Heaven.
My pastor came and talked with me about Jesus Christ.
I began to realize Jesus is the Son of God. It is so
amazing what I did learn from them. I began going
to ladies bible studies, Sunday School classes and
other activities. I prayed and asked God to forgive
my sins and asked Jesus to come into my heart. I
became a Christian on September 15, 1980 and was
baptized at the same time. We all know some Christians
do feel God has forsaken them, but God does not desert
the anxious Christian. Every Christian is given a
spirit of love. One of the most joyful statements
in Scripture is " I have loved you with an everlasting
love; I have drawn you with loving kindness."
(Jer 31:3) If you and I can ponder God's power surely
we can lean on his love. But God demonstrates his
own love for us in this "While we were still sinners,
Christ died for us"
(Rom 5:8) I am involved in church activities such
as Church Historian in a Presbyterian church for 12
years now. I keep records of what is going on in our
church, take pictures of the activities and do the
bulletin board every month. All my relatives are
Baptist. We are the only ones that are protestant
in this generation. Very strange. I think God has
a purpose for us.
On Feb 14, 1995, I will never forget when I heard
the news from my former tour guide from bus trips
called me about my best friend named Gundi,
from Germany had died from Alcohol related problems.
It was shocking news. We had known each other for
two years. She was not a Christian. I didn't know
how sick she was. I didn't know how heavy she drank
at times. Alcohol killed her. Why did she have to
die? I was very emotionally saddened at that time.
How could I find another friend like her?
It took me years to find one. I had no friends until
I came to classmate in 2004. I made a few good
friends there.
The year of 2005 was suppose to be moving time. We
were suppose to move to West Virginia in July. We
never expected this to happen to us. My father
acted so strange with his mental illness. I got
filled with anger, complaints, fights, misery, and
very depressed. I knew it was not healthy for me.
My mother and I had a hard time dealing with my
father's condition in court hearings for three
months; then he ended up in a mental hospital for
two months. My mother discovered that my father has
dementia. We didn't know what to think. She brought
him home on Christmas Eve. I was so afraid that he
might do something to us. He hasn't. He was very
quiet and laid on the bed all the time until the
new year. I was very torn. "Why me? Life is not an
easy task but God does help us if we ask Him to help
us, give us good advice. It made me realize what
is important. It is important for me to have a family
again.
On August 10th, 2005 I fell into deep depression.
I felt like I was stuck in a hole with the devil.
I went in the kitchen, got the prescription drug the
doctor gave me and I took two instead of one. It
made me drowsy. I was shaking like a leaf because
I was so scared. I was looking at Death. I slept
all morning. I told my mother about it and she
called my pastor to come and talk with me. I realize
now I would be sinning if I attempt suicide. I
wouldn't have life after death. I asked myself
" Why me ? " I told God to help me to get rid of the
devil in my mind. I told the devil " go away". I told
my pastor about my feelings about my parents and I
didn't want be like my father from last year. I
decided to get some help from a psychologist and
Christian counselor. I have to re-adjust my life altogether, find a job,
go someplace else and enjoy myself.
I told God to help me to get rid of devil thing out
of my mind. I told the devil " go away". I have been
on the medication for now. it is for mood swings.
I am doing real well . I have been seeing the counselor
for three months until October. Right now , I am no
longer see them until if I need to see them next time.
On October 4th. I had a misable time when I was very sick with
stomach virus last few days until Thursday. I told my
mother to take me to the hospital. Oh, it scare me
a death. My stomach felt nausa! . Why me O lord.
I am too sick to go! I am too weakness.. I did go
to the emergency room. The doctor fincally gave me
the IV on with special liquid. I was dehydrated for
two days straight. I couldn't eat at all. I was so
miseable there. My doctor said it is a stomach virus.
I started feeling lot better later the evening and
return home. Next day, I starting eat slowly and
drink. I begin walk around a bit. God has been
working out on me. He has been healing me. I was
praying to God while I was in the Emergency Room.
I remember this scripture in my head as I did pray.
Jeremiah 17:14 Heal me, O LORD, and I shall be healed;
save me, and I shall be saved: for thou art my praise.
So it done! next day.!. I went to my high school reunion
following weekend. It so blessing weekend!. God has
been good to me November 14th, I went to my uncle
Jim's funeral service. It is my father's only
brother who died from long illness. He is Baptist.
It brought me memories of what Jesus died on the
cross as I started out I became as Christian. but
I heard the preacher said." He is not here: for he
is risen, as he said. Come, see the place where
the Lord lay And go quickly, and tell his disciples
that he is risen from the dead. He is risen! He is
sitteth right hand of God. Praise God. We shalt be
free from the sins, will be going to heaven and
peace with the lord . I could see my uncle's body
in his casket at the Church. I was able to see him
before They will bury him . I could hear the pastor
say that He will have no pain, no suffering. He is
in peace with the lord.
I look at my uncle for last time. .I could see him
go to the heaven with the lord right now. It made
me smile. I heard my cousins Jasmin and Kelly gave
a speech about their grandfather "Things he like to
do " I like the last sentence he always tells the
truth. It brought tears out of my eyes. I had to get
tissue out of my jacket. I got emotional, smiles at
my cousins. We went down to the graveyard, not far
from the church and their home. I got lump my throat,
not try to cry. I was holding on my father's arm.
I know he is in heaven.. I hugs everyone especially
his wife and the kids. On December 18, 2004. I just
walked out.
I had enough working there. It has been working for
sixteen years. It has been one year since I had
overcome my depression, I came back to Myspace.
I join here there last year. I haven't been on there
very much last year . I fincally caught up with it.
On January.. It make me realize what My good friend
in Top 24 list gave me the idea of the book called
" How to win over Depression? " by Tim LayHaye. I
got this book, read it, took this test. Oh I am in
trouble.. I Realize what I did wrong here. I kept
reading on and on. It blew me away. I pray God to
help to let me seek your word of the scriptures and
understand. He did. It took several months to finding
a right job for me . until May Got the call from friend
at church asked for watch their dog while they are
away. I took it. Now I am self employed as Dogsittier
for Christian families who are away. I go take care
of their dog and their house. God had been working
through me everyday. I am so thankful to all the
friends here who taught me so many things I didn't
know about God's word or other things . I have so
blessed That I grow closer to Jesus as my savior.
My father don't have dementia at all. My father is
doing very good . I am so blessed things has been
changed this year. Thanks to the lord that things
has work out for the best. I recommend those books
I encourage you could read about overcome depression.
" How to Win over depression " by Tim LaHaye
" Spirit-temperament" By Tim LaHaye
Those you want to know about my Hearing Impaired
experience. I do American Sign Lauguage. I haven'
sign much as I used to. but I have Book called
" Sign of the TIme" By Edgar H . Shroyer.
This is excellent book I have been studied.
God bless everyone!.
If you have any suggestions about books that recommend
on Depression
or Anger. Let me know. Thanks.
Oh one thing, There has been added on.
There is other books that
recommend also Spiritual Depression, by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Faith Tried and Triumphant, by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Benefiting from Life's Trials, John's audio series on James 1:2-18
Spiritual Depression, by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Faith Tried and Triumphant, by D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones
Benefiting from Life's Trials, John's audio series on James 1:2-1
By Terri